Trust God. How many times have you heard someone say this? For me these two words have made all the difference. For the last six months my life has been turned upside down and the meaning of trusting God became more real to me than at any other time in my life. During this time of trusting, these are a few things I have learned.

I will doubt, but He is faithful. There were times, and there are still times, when I doubt God. When I fail, repent and come back to the Lord. He always reminds me that “when we are faithless, He remains faithful” (2 Timothy 2:13). Peter trusted God, he had faith to get out of the boat and walk to Jesus on water, but when he saw the wind, he was afraid and cried out “Lord, save me!”. Immediately Jesus reached out to him and caught him. “You of little faith” He said, “why do you doubt”? (Mathew 14:29). Emotionally I doubt, I am angry, terrified, lonely, but when I ask God, He immediately saves me time and time again.

God is at work to change me. I always thought I had to do this on my own, that Ihad to change me. How far from the truth I was. I will never forget the night I was struggling with life, God kept saying to me “it is God who works in you”. I woke up and had an overwhelming desire to know what God was trying to tell me. I found Philippians 2:13, “for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose.” Since then I have discovered so many other verses where He is at work in me. Philippians 1:6 says, “being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus” and Romans 8:28 says, “and we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” I know I also have a responsibility in how I respond to God, but at least I can be confident in knowing that I do not have to do it on my own – and for me that is enough to keep me going.

God loves me and He will restore me. Throughout my life I have always felt unloved, unwanted and made decisions based on these feelings. I felt I had wasted my life and there was no way it could be fixed or good again. When I was in the pit of despair God reached into my heart and said “I have loved you with an everlasting love, I have drawn you with loving kindness, I will build you up again, and you will be rebuilt” (Jeremiah 31:3). Since then He has also shown me how much I am loved by so many people in my life and has given me the hope of his Word to rebuild me.

Prayer works. I don’t know how, but it does. There are numerous references to prayer in the Bible. I don’t have a particular one that gives a reason to pray; I just see the examples of the Old Testament greats like David, Nehemiah and Ruth along with Paul in the New Testament. I pray and even though I don’t see answers to all of my prayers, I know it is doing something to me, and I can’t explain it.

Now when I think about trusting God it’s not just a nice thought, it is a real active way to live my life. I am confident that God is active, that He is faithful, that He loves me and that He will restore me. Because of this storm I have been in, I have been changed forever.